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What do I say, mister Michael or George? George: George is fine... (to the crew) Can we start? George: ... or Your Royal Highness... (laughs) Okay George, is it exaggerated to say that the video is a bold statement? George: A bold statement? No, I think it's a very bold statement. But I'm ... You know, it's kind of not... it's not really that... it shouldn't have really surprised people quite as much as it has, because I have a history of... If you back me into a corner - and obviously I was seriously backed into a corner there - if you back me into a corner, I'm gonna come out fighting. You know, I was really stitched up. I had something completely awful happen to me. I'm firmly convinced that it didn't happen by accident. And I didn't plan it. And the actual arrest, the arrest itself... What actually happened without going into it, the arrest itself was illegal. So the video is my perfect opportunity. I mean, I might not be able to tell people exactly what happened, but I can at least say: look, one, I can laugh about it and two, the police are bastards, you know. You were arrested for disorderly conduct. How disorderly was it? George: Well, it was no more or less disorderly as than the policeman involved, put it that way. What's the best joke that has been made about it? I know about 1,230 jokes about Clinton, there must have been jokes about this as well. George: There have only been a few about me. A couple of them were really good... I like the one that said that George Michael is afraid to travel back into America, 'cause he's afraid of being stopped at customs for handling swollen goods... I liked that one... But other than that... There were only a couple, really... Nothing really great. But to conclude the subject, it wasn't very chique this way of coming out. If it's a way of coming out, it's not the chiquest way of doing it. George: Not very chique. But I at least managed to turn it into something original, you know. And I'm certainly not the first person to be accused of or to be arrested for the same thing. I'm not the first, I won't be the last, I'm just the biggest. You can take that any way you like. (smiles) I will... No but, the thing that surprises me is that you make a very happy impression. Because when I see the photographs coming with your album for example, there's only one photograph where you're smiling and the others are sad... George: It's just because I don't like to see myself smiling. That's the only reason... George: That's the only reason. I'm not trying to let everyone think I'm really miserable. Everyone's... Because I've not been doing any interviews for the last ten years or so. I mean, to be fair, I have been very miserable. The last five years of my life have been very miserable. I lost my partner and I lost my mother, in succession, you know. So... it's been tough. I had no... I kind of... I suppose that the music reflects those times. I'm happy now. People think I'm happy because I'm suddenly "out", that that suddenly changed my life and habit. I'm happy because nobody's died in my life for the last eighteen months. You know, that's good enough for me right now. I'm not worrying about anybody's health. I'm not... I think I'm over the worst of grieving for my mother. And so that generally makes me feel quite light. Your mother was very important to you, wasn't she? George: Oh yeah, very much, very much so. Can you say in what respect? George: Well, she was just a great mother. And she was important to me in the way that a mother is important to her child, especially to her son. This is the decade where popstars often say that success doesn't mean anything. When suddenly you realise that people around you die, for example. It's the first time that so many very successful people in one industry say: it didn't make me happy. But success must have made you happy at some point. When we go back to the beginning of your career. I saw you on a videoclip and you were very happy. You seemed to be enjoying yourself enormously. George: Success did make me happy, but to be perfectly honest, there was a period of time where... it stopped making me happy. Caus' I was very lonely. And then when that happened, I decided to stop doing certain things. I decided I didn't want to be working as a professional George Michael for 365 days a year. Because I was unhappy and lonely. And I needed to get my life together. And the things that have made me unhappy in my life have not had anything to do with my work. They were just things I couldn't control. But on the other hand, you started hating let's say this character you created yourself, the character of George Michael. George: Not really, I mean I never hated him. I've had two very strong driving forces and one of them has been pure, I think, and that's my music. That's been a pure desire to make better music and to keep making music and to keep pleasing people with it. And the other driving force has been my ego, which was very fragile and very insecure. And that's the reason I wanted to be famous. Any celebrity that tells you they came into this business as a secure person, is lying their ass off. But there's this paradox, because you created George Michael because he had to fulfil all the ambitions that Georgios Panos was maybe impossible to realise, but on the other hand, at the end of your book for example, you say: "I like to get away as much as possible from George Michael." George: The original person I was had not had time to develop or form properly. I was straight out of school and straight into the music business. Nine months later I had a record contract and within a year of leaving school I had a hit record. You had to have that contract or your father would have kicked you out... George: How many people grow up with the ability to resist stardom? If you think that you're potentially writing hit songs and you can sing them... I'd have to be some kind of superhuman nineteen-yearold to make a different decision, wouldn't I? People around you say: what happened last April in America was not just an incident. It was also maybe a consequence of the fact that you were very far down at that moment. Was it a bad period? George: It was a bad period, yes. I'd say... I suppose... I think the carelessness was self-destructive and I think I was still going through a self-destructive period. I think I felt for a long time after my mother's death, that... I don't know... I felt that things were... I guess I was just going through the extremes of grief, having a very, very serious depression and within that depression I guess I got really some self-destructive and reckless things going on. That's not to say that's why it happened. I don't think any part of me did it deliberately. I just think I was just being reckless. On the other hand, to come back to that story... It's none of my business at all. I mean, you went to CNN, you even went on the Internet to explain yourself. And I always had the impression: why is he doing that? It's none of my business. George: Yeah, but it's dignity. It had been made your business in other people's words. It's quite simple, really. I mean, do you really want to leave the world with "zip me up before you go-go" as their abiding memory of what happened to me? I didn't read a lot of the stuff that went on, but I knew what it was about. And I knew how bad it would be. I looked at other scandals and the way people dealt with them and I always thought, unless you hurt somebody, unless you've done something that's harmful to another human being... you know, just get out there and say: so what? I knew that the logical and stereotypical reaction would be: ah poor man, you know, poor man, he's gay, he doesn't want anyone to know he's gay, even though everyone in my life did know... People around you knew already? George: Yeah, everyone knew about it. My sex life had been thrown into a public arena. I thought the most dignifying thing to do would be the opposite of what everyone expected and to come out and talk about it. The only area where I'm confused about this whole issue, is politics. Because in politics, if you have secrets, it can affect everyone. Because... if there's things that you want to hide, obviously there's all kinds of things that can happen to you, that can have a negative effect on you. But everyone's supposed to do the opposite, to come out with it? George: Exactly, exactly. And in political terms, it's a lot more serious. I mean, for me, it's just about me, isn't it. It's not really a big deal. Politics are even a more complicated business than showbusiness? George: Yeah, I think that there are all kinds of considerations in there. And again, it all comes down to the same thing. Honesty is the best policy, at the end of the day, it all comes down to honesty. Privacy I think is absolutely fine. And I don't think that there was any reason for my sex life to become part of my career this way, that having made the mistake that I made and open myself up to that situation... Obviously you have to deal with it the right way in a media situation. But the average gay celebrity, whether they're an actor or a singer or this or that... At the end of the day, you're not allowed secrets anymore. I suppose that there's a lesson to be learned from my little fable, which is that if you're a celebrity, don't make an issue out of your privacy, because they'll get you for it. I think I was right. I think it was no-one's business... I think I was wrong, not wrong but stupid to allow what happened to happen. F*** it, when it comes to the principle of it, you're lost anyway. If you expect to be a celebrity with any sense of privacy and dignity in moving into the next century, forget it. The character that I display when I'm doing videos for instance, always comes across as incredibly confident and arrogant almost. It's the exact opposite of everything I was taught to be. As a person I feel very reluctant to broadcast my opinions about things with my music. Because I feel that they are my opinions and they're just my opinions and I shouldn't try and give them that importance. That's very like my mum. But the interesting thing is that the performer is completely the opposite. The performer is like, looked like he ran around the house screaming when he was three years old and no-one ever told him to shut up, which really wasn't me. I came from a real kind of environment where the children were quiet because dad was asleep... Not seen or not heard exactly, but close... So still the two characters? George: Yes, but less and less so. If you hear a better joke about what happened, please do call us. George: I will and if you hear one, even if it's in Dutch, you can call me too. Okay. Thank you very much. George: Thank you. |